Working and so on

I've been busy, so to speak. With making music. I changed the genre again, now I'm trying to make composition with my Macbook. I've listened to too much Garbage songs. Now I want to use their style, and mix it with the Dresden Dolls, and my own style, plus Chopin. I really hope that'll work and I really hope this will finally be something I want to perform with (and I sincerely hope that I will actually perform).

So that is what I'm doing, plus practicing Chopin Preludes (I need to buy the Nocturnes), my own compositions and on the guitar scales and songs. The only thing I am not doing is practicing my vocals which is something I should do. I've generally neglected my vocals for the past year because I don't like hearing myself or I am just ashamed others might hear it. Yet I should practice because I will do the vocals on some songs.



I've been wondering the past few days about what I want to do.

Do I really want to perform?

- Yes, although I have to admit I'm terrified every time I'm standing in front of a small crowd.

What kind of music do I want to make?

- I don't know.

You see that second question? That's the one that freaks me out. I know I want to perform and I know I want to try to be famous or whatever. But I don't know with what kind of music. Now that I've started making songs via my laptop, I found it sounding great. At the same time I was wondering whether or not I could produce more songs that were this great. So now I want to prove myself I can do it by making about three songs in the next three weeks. If I'm really pleased with them I'll put them on youtube.

Cheers,